Excited !

im finally getting let out of my house today with derek :) im off punishment !! im going to ask for my iPods back 2night. i cant get my phone back yet because i have to go and buy it haha. Well, anyways, im so exctied. todays my last day of school and right after school im getting picked up by derek and were going out ! :) and then saturday were going to my studios dance recital and then were going out to eat with him and everyone from the studio :D i cant wait !! ive been grounded and not let out of the house for 4 months mind you.

uuuhh, schoolinq.

So my parent's are trying to make me go back to west next year. HA ! i DO NOT, want to go to shitty ass west. I've been with them kids since middle school and the rumors, arent pretty. Im not putting up with all over again for another year. I love aep, not because its 3 hours, thats kinda why i hate it. But i love aep because its a new place, its all new people who dont even know me or the rumors. No one has came up to me asking anything that all the people at west ask me. No ones trying to fight me or get my jumped for not even doing anything. Im so much happier with out west and the people there in my life. I really am. Now i love going to school, i actually want to wake up and go to school. And i feel good about going. Everyone whos older says to ignore it. Thats easy for them to say, they dont have high school in their lifes. They have their work, children and husbands, they have bills to pay, their children to worry about, of course they wouldnt worry about people talking about them ! But for high school students, high school is all we have. Everyone we know and everything we do comes from high school. Our friends, our enemies, sports are from school, everywhere we go on friday night involves people from school. So we really dont have anything else in life except high school. So because of that, when people talk about us, its a HUGE thing. How people view u in highschool makes you either accepted, or not accepted. And it sounds stupid, but its not stupid when your in the situation. I want to go to east next year, not because of my boyfriend at all. Its because its a new school and no one knows me there. I would love it there. I can even get a bus there! I dont think my dad is going to let me go back to west but its getting my mom to agree with me that I really dont belong there. Im going to beg so much to be let out of that school. And if I do go there next year, it will be hell for my parents. Ill leave school all the time, and i just wont go. They wont be able 2 stop me. I dont care how much school time and how much trouble i get into.

BestFriends(:

i have a bestfriend. A bestfriend that i've had since diaper days ! We live in the same neighboorhood, we were so close for so long. All through elementrary school and throughout middle school and now junior year of high school. Recently, i changed a lot and we havent talked as much as we did before. We didnt hang out that much eather. My friends started become pot heads and hers were the goody-too-shoes kind of girls who strictly wore light pink and ruffles everyday. But now after I got arrested im starting to change and now shes changing too and we like the same things again. She grew up from them jonas brothers and whoever else is in disney chanel. And now that its finals and shes getting out of school around the same time i usually get out we starting to hang out and noticing that we like the same things again and were getting closer. We arent super close yet tho, but i can tell by the end of the summer it will happen(: im so excited to have bestfriends again since all of my other friends, i noticed dont do anything but smoke and now that we can't smoke anymore its like they all wanna have sex all the time. Im not like that and i didnt think they was like that either buh hey, boys will be boys right? I think the thing i need is a group of friends that are super close that I do everything with. And me and Dana and Cara and be like that. Trust me, we can !! :D

court, was so stupid. All we did was wait around in the hallway with all the other pot heads untill some guy came to talk to us all as a group. He told us we had a choice. We had a choice to either go into this program or to not go in. The program was a 3 month program. For 3 months, you undergo weekly drug testing (UHH) &nd weekly drug rehab classes (LOL). Then after the 3 months is up, they drop all charges. As soon as i herd that, I knew i would be entering myself for the program. Without the program, the judge would have to make a decision during a private court session depending on what you did. Knowing that Im getting charged with the selling and possion of drugs, i was in no position to pass up my spot for the program. 3 months is really not that bad. Its 3/4 of the summer. So me and Ry planned that on the 1st day of school, we are smoking more then we ever have before. I CANT WAIT !!

okkay , so todays the court date , June 10th, 2O1O. and iM SCARED ! iK tht as soon as I get there, their going to take me downstairs and drug test me! iVe been smoking up to the last day possibly and im very afriad that its going to come out positive. iF it does, im SCREWED. i have to drink as much water as i can and just flush out my whole system. My mom's so disapointed in me. &nd so is my dad. They shouldnt have to go threw this, smoking weed was not their decision it was mine so they shouldnt have to put up with and go threw what I have to go threw just because iM a minor. This is stupid and i have my regrets doing what i did. I should have just smoked weed occasionaly, but I started doing it multiple times a day. &nd my grades started dropping by a lot. Im shocked that i got myself into all of this mess. A year ago i would have never expected me to be at AEP and getting drug tested and getting arrested. I would have never saw this in my future.

Hamster

Hamster:

im freaking out !! iHave court today, for being a pothead and getting caught skipping school with my bestfriend Ryan. We cut all the time, and in the morning before homeroom we would always go to the pipeline and smoke up bowls before school. Well after about 4,5 months of getting away with it all the time, there was this one sketchy day where we skipped period 2 and there were teachers all over the pipe line and we dipped. Then we tried cutting period 5 and while on the walk to the pipe line an ass hole administer who knows ryan smokes stopped us and asked us where we were going and ryan told some rediculas story tht no one would have believed! So we was brought to the office &nd I ended up getting away with it. And so did ryan. Untill Mr. DePaulma came &nd asked to search him becuse he knows ryan smokes. They did find weed on ryan and they called me back down and searched me and found the 80 $ i made from selling along with my sacs of weed, and my bowl and lighters! I got 20 hours of community service right from the start and a court date and drug testing. o.O

Uhh !

So, since I dont have a car right now, a bus comes and picks me up for my new school called AEP. School starts at 8 and ends at 11. (its an alternate education program) So my bus comes at 7:45 to take me to school. But today, a new bus driver picks me up....AT 7:00. !!! I was FLiPPiNG out. I was no where near ready for school! I arrived at school at 7:15 when school starts at 8 ! i was so PiSSED ! None of the teachers or office people where here! It was jus me ! thank GOD this school year is almost over. Uhh, the school systems jus dont understand ANYTHING !